"If I wasn't using, I'd kill all my customers..."
I'm spending an eventful day with Miss Lovely, my fav nude model, stripper, callgirl and lesbian porn star. We're eating lunch at a burger joint. Just another boring conversation...lol.
My friend is a little Catholic schoolgirl. She had a bad dream last night, back when she was doped on natural preggie hormones and self-medicated on opiates. Actually, she was in withdrawal from opiates, after W&H denied her tearful requests for drugs on her 21st birthday the night before. Not your ordinary nightmare. I asked her to tell me about it....
ML: What was that, they say Hail Mary three times in the mirror and she'll come and get you?! Bloody Mary, something like that to try and scare people. I was with a few people. This demon thing would get you if you looked too close in the mirror, and it would do something with your eyes.
W&H: What was the demon like? A little girl?
ML: Yeah, but we didn't know that yet. But really it wasn't...in that house it had no form. It could take a form.
W&H: The haunted house where your family was killed in. Who in your family was killed in it?
W&H: I thought you said somebody had been killed?
W&H: Oh somebody's family, not your family?
ML: Yeah. We didn't know who. Some girl. But one girl, she died.
W&H: How did she die?
ML: I don't know. She looked into the mirror and died hahahaha!
W&H: I'm glad I'm not in this dream.
ML: One girl I did know. This girl I had a class with in ninth grade, hahaha, it's weird. And some guy I didn't know. It was her boyfriend. He filled me in, "Oh it happened here about a month ago blah blah blah. I'm like, "You retard!" So, me and her go back to my apartment. I just remembered seeing the cop SUV sitting out front like he always does. So that part was accurate. Than it was like, a family -- husband wife and mother. The husband looked like my (convicted alcoholic) stepdad (who punched her in the face breaking her bloody nose forcing her to abandon her home forever at age 13). I was like my own mom...
W&H: You were like your own mom? That's unusual. (Her mom the beautiful model, cop, drug addict, drug dealer who fucked her boyfriend.)
ML: Yeah. My little brother was in the dream too. And a little girl. And the demon chose her.
W&H: The little girl?
W&H: Do you know the little girl?
W&H: And what did the little demon do?
ML: Killed everybody. (ML spoke in a happy little girl voice)
W&H: Killed everybody?
ML: Killed my stepdad.
W&H: That's a horrible dream.
ML: Then it killed my (half) brother. So I was kept alive to witness all that.
W&H: Like happens in all the horror movies, only one person survives usually.
ML: Well, me and her (the demon girl) survived hahaha.
W&H: You and the demon you mean? What did you do to fight the demon?
ML: I didn't. I woke up.
W&H: They say if you don't wake up in the dream, you die in life. The demon is not your daughter, is it...? Were you pregnant in this dream...? You were your mother...? Is the demon YOU?
ML: Ha. I didn't look like me...
W&H: That is an interesting dream. I wonder if those liquid detox herbs and vitamins had anything to do with that?
ML: I think it was the Ambien.
W&H: Normally you don't remember nothing on Ambien, you've got total amnesia, day and night. Crash your car while sleeping, that's normal on Ambien. It's very strong.....
W&H EDITORIAL NOTE:
Multiple personality disorder (dissociative identity disorder) is highly suspected as the main cause of her diagnosis of anxiety disorder, as a normal PTSD reaction to violent rapes in her early childhood...and continuing through the present day...including a rape by a rehab counselor that almost killed her... Alters often "kill" each other, hopefully during integration and healing. Perhaps the Little Girl Demon is an enraged splinter from her original core personality, with the core from before the violent rapes at age 7? Her current daily personality (alter?) has total amnesia before age 6 -- 6 years before she ever used drugs... Nightmares are a standard withdrawal symptom from Roxicodone.....