"I had to be using or I'd kill all my customers......."
My 20-year-old ATF UTR preggie escort porn star had a little 1-time "lapse" not relapse. As my condition before allowing such a risky fuckup, she promised me to reveal more of her early childhood rape. She made me promise to not reveal the contents of that confession. The following account hopefully meets that contract, only revealing what has already been revealed.
This early rape was the only event I know of that she had refused to discuss. It appears to be an event so traumatic that it now affects her every day of her life, and is the main reason for abusing opiates, to keep her demons locked safely away. It probably was a hard push into the nude modeling, stripping, escort and lesbian porn business.
I agreed reluctantly to this lapse, with potentially severe consequences for keeping her daughter-to-be. The apparently switching of personalities is quite shocking to behold, jonesing for release.
She does the deed. After a few minutes, a sex kitten appears, only this time it's a very sad one. Very childlike. More of an abandoned kitten on death row in an animal shelter. There is no happy high this time. She begins...
All I can say, is that it's a textbook example from the book HOW TO USE TRAUMA-BASED MIND CONTROL TO CREATE A SEXSLAVE. Yes, she has the obligatory butterfly tattoo.
As Pimpin Ken observed, most of these girls are severely traumatized sexually from childhood, and they work as hoes to compensate, often as "revenge".
The childhood "therapy" she received after the rape only triggered the PTSD over and over again, a common complaint from such survivors.
What's perhaps most interesting and potentially useful is what led her to finally reveal the assaults and end the abuse. She physically attempted to stop a family argument and was injured in the process. But this empowerment by standing up for herself was life-changing. Soon she revealed the crimes and the crimes stopped...for a while, at least with the original perp.
The next day she's severely hungover. And the next. She feels the pain she knows will soon be over, forever. And she's glad.
Now that she's not using or abusing, the sex kitten is GONE, nowhere to be found. Celebate, literally, with all her men who stuck by her these days. It's much more than her legitimate fear of losing her underweight baby, it's a psychological need after surviving detox clean and sober, while waiting weeks or months to get approved for the psych meds and counseling she desperately needs.
Her celebacy may become permanent -- especially towards me? There is no touching, hugging, kissing, sex talk or sleepovers without the aid of chemicals, and chemicals are no longer allowed, by her or by me. We do spend a lot of time in the Friend Zone.
"I had to be using or I'd kill all my customers......."
The child survivor of rape making an appearance? Some of those customers did rape her. Some were just sick perverts. Some tried to kill her.
Or is she merely turning into an ordinary girl, raising an ordinary family, working an ordinary job, going back to ordinary school, DATING with all the necessary drama including a relatively sexless existance?
Do I want drama, mindgames and mindfucks?
Is the real sex kitten I've grown to love and fuck GONE forever, at least for me? At least when clean and sober?
Do I want to settle for an ordinary American girl, in-love only with herself?
Or do I want a mind-controlled sexslave?
"I had to be using or I'd kill all my customers......."
All...as in ME? A Freudian Slip? A warning?
"Do you want to kill me?"
"No, I only have four friends from the business, including you, who know about me and my name."
"How many total customers?"
"More than 1,000?"
"No. Less than that."
"Yeah that's more like it."
"That's not very many, but then you were UTR and not advertising. You must've had a lot of repeat business. You got a lot from me."
Shrugs her pretty bare shoulders.
"Anyone who don't know how many they've fucked is probably a ho."
"I've problably fucked at least 30. I don't remember many names or faces, so that makes me a manho."
"So you're friends with about 4% of your customers. (That's about the same percentage as customers who raped or tried to kill you I didn't say.)"
We spent the rest of the day running errands with her making me money (for a change), and we enjoyed an all-you-can-pretend-to-eat buffet.
Then she cooked her microwave oven. Apparently it don't work as a timer with no food in it for 10 minutes. BF panicked then remembered his family had a free one. I insisted we drive over and get it, rather than spend the next few days in a panic of verbal assaults (NA training kicked in). So that's how this deadbeat dad got to see his abandoned kids in a short but happy reunion. Looks like it'll be a regular event now that they're clean and sober, getting congrats from friends and family. Let the healing begin.
Then I fucked it up making a comment about who's the babydaddy? Bombed da house.
BF paused then replied it better be his.
"I know it's not mine. haha"
THE STARE...not as cute this time.
Oh fuck! Are they supposed to be in the Monogamous Zone -- if only in their dreams? Now she really does want to kill me!
1. Fake Hookers Kill Mexican Wrestling Midgets
First of all, one of the most surprising things about this entire debacle is the fact that every single headline that covered it read "Mexican Midget Wrestlers". "Midget."
Anyway, so the story goes that two twin wrestlers from the wonderful world of 'Lucha Mini' Mexican little-person wrestling were somehow seduced by two, normal-sized, women in July of 2009.
The women were part of an organized crime gang who often pose as prostitutes to gather a little attention. It worked. Sometime during the night, the women spiked the twins' drinks, as the crime syndicate usually does. Now, the women know to give men a certain dosage to knock them out long enough to be robbed, so they stuck by what they knew and gave the twins the normal-sized dosage. It was no small mistake, though, as these women (who had apparently never had any pets that needed any medicine) ended up accidentally poisoning the two Luchi Mini wrestlers because the dosage of drugs they fed them was too high for their small bodies to take.
Unknowingly, the two fake prostitutes robbed the men of their belongings while they were slowly dying.
Normally, this drug would knock a man out and he would re-awaken a few hours later.
Click here for the full news story (and an example of Fox News using the word "Midget" in a freaking news headline.)
Embedded here is just a taste of the wonderful world of Mexican "Midget" Wrestling.
2. Prostitute/Porn Star Kills Tattoo Artist At Sex Party
Amanda Logue was a porn star who owned a lingerie shop and occasionally dabbled in prostitution, much like some women do with pottery or knitting.
She and her boyfriend, Jason Andrews, had a gathered a sizable Internet and Twitter following and were making money off of her body. Soon after, she was hired by a tattoo artist to be the prostitute for a Requiem For a Dream style sex party. Before the event, Andrews, the boyfriend, wrote on Twitter that they were "killing time waiting for a party to find us." Notice the coincidental word choice.
Records showed the two exchanged the following text messages:
Andrews: "I'm so glad you're really commited (sic) to this take. Keep eyes for a knife, etc (sic) for me!"
Logue: "I'm (expletive) exited (sic) … I want to (have sex) after we kill hum (sic)."
Andrews: "You just get him relaxed and face down … Take. Your. Time."
The next day, Logue Twittered that her and Andrews were lying around the couch, eating popcorn and watching movies. As they did that, their victim was found lying on the bed, blood splattered on the walls and on the ceiling fan, pounded to death by a sledge hammer with $6,000 and all his credit cards missing. Logue and Andrews would be arrested weeks later.
3. So Popular With Politicians She Was Pardoned
Bridget Fury, also known as Delia Swift, started out her criminal career in the 1850s with manslaughter and then followed that by escaping her jail cell in Ohio, which (at the time) couldn't have been more difficult than beckoning a dog that happened to have the keys in its mouth.
She then fled to New Orleans, a shady place full of rough-house gangs and loose law. No, really. This happened and this is a real person.
Imagine Bourbon Street gone completely wild. At the time, it was so government-free that when Ohio tried to extradite her, all she had to do to avoid extradition was stay in New Orleans and regular in their crazy brothels.
Known as "The Fury" because of her fiery red hair, she was known for running around and stabbing countless men, probably in a completely inebriated, insane state of self-hatred, STDs and shanty-song fatigue. When finally convicted of one murder by the completely hopeless police, she was fittingly sent to the penitentiary.
BUT the higher politicians liked her, and the services she so masterfully provided, so much that she was pardoned after a year and was back out on the streets soon after, banging and stabbing her way through the South.
Click here for the historical account and more photo-accurate depictions of history like the one above
4. Killed The Man Who Had An Iron Ball For A Hand
Along with Bridget Fury above, Mary Jane 'Bricktop' Jackson also legendarily roamed the streets of seedy New Orleans and in eight years killed four men. Along with a career in the dance-houses in New Orleans, she was reported to have a favorite knife she designed herself, "it had a heavy five-inch blade at each end, with a center grip handsomely mounted in German silver". Needless to say, she was a complete psychopath, who fittingly had an also-murderous-prostitute roommate, which only could have been the worst possible influence.
Anyway, so back to her knife: with her weapon, she could cut and slash in any direction "without changing the position of her hand," according to her. It's safe to assume that many men fell to her blade before the murder that inspired her disappearance.
In 1857, she moved into a house with Bridget Fury after having been banned from the dance-houses and became a prostitute out of necessity.
In 1861, she "brutalized" John Miller, a former boxer who, get this, lost his left arm in a fight and fastened AN IRON BALL AND CHAIN TO THE STUMP. He made his arm into a mace. You know that REAL men have died out once we live in a time where it doesn't seem reasonable/necessary to attach a medieval weapon to where one of your most important limbs used to be. Oh, the good old days.
As recorded in this book , the way everything got started was that Miller (the guy with the Bond-villain arm) threatened Bricktop (the girl with the unsexiest prostitute name ever) with a whip and said she needed to be lashed (while probably wasted out of his mind, or just bored from busting in too many heads with his awesome cannonball-arm).
Bricktop stepped forward, snatched the whip defensively and beat him. He attacked with his iron ball, charging at her and she was able to actually take the ball and use it to drag him down to the floor. As a last resort, he tried to stab her, but she pushed him up against the wall and furiously knifed the beejesus out of him using her pride and joy.
She was sent to prison, released a year later and never heard from again.
Click here for the pages detailing the fight.
5. The House of Blood Murders
Edith McAlinden was a drifting homeless woman and prostitute who, in 2004, was released from a nine month stint in jail for a serious assault. She went to her boyfriend's flat after a drinking match (because, for some reason, she lived in the old West) and killed him by stabbing him in the thigh.
There were two witnesses in the apartment at the time, so she called up her son and his friend to help her "take care" of them. The son and his friend, naturally, brought what everyone in their position would to "take care" of people: an arsenal of weapons including an axe, a baseball bat, golf clubs, a hammer, boiling water (which, come to think of it, must have been like cooled soup by the time they used it), knives, metal files, a belt for whackin' and pieces of wood (you know, just in case.)
When the police found them hours later, McAlinden was clutching to her boyfriend's body screaming at him to wake up, obviously completely out of her mind; clearly not realizing that a limp body in a flat where (according to police reports) "there was so much blood in the flat that it was impossible to be precise about the details of the violence" meant that the guy was dead.
Police described the scene as "the most chilling I have every visited".
Click here for full news story
6. First Female Serial Killer (From That Charlize Theron Movie)
Infamous for killing seven men while working as a prostitute, Aileen Wuornos's story was so affecting they even made a movie about her (Which was Monster, famous for Charlize Theron's Oscar winning portrayal of Wuornos and making Charlize Theron look somehow unattractive).
Following a history of childhood abuse, sexual assault, and a pregnancy at 14, she first got into the prostitution thing at 15 to support herself, because who wants to flip burgers or pump gas when you could flip mattresses and pump... moving on....
She would continually be arrested for assault and she would spend time in jail for armed robbery throughout her life. The string of crimes along with her continuing work as a prostitute made something inside of her snap, eventually, and in 1989 she went on a spree of a series of murders.
Six of the bodies were found abandoned in the woods or in their owners' cars, showing that work ethic wasn't her strong suit. They bodies had been shot multiple times. The 7th body was never found.
Wuornos was apprehended in 1991. She claimed the murders were in self-defense, but she was convicted and received a death sentence, because that's what happened in those days. Up to her execution, there was much debate about whether she was mentally sane or not and the media did a lot of questioning of Wuornos's motives in the killings. Was it self-defense or was Wuornos holding in so much anger and pain, she took it out on someone she felt was threatening her and denied it to herself later on?
Either way, her life experiences fully convinced her she wanted to die and that if she was released, she would kill again, no question. She was executed in 2002. I, for one, am waiting for the fake prostitute Mexican midget wrestling film to come out/be written. They could do Hobbit CGI on Luis Guzman and a fat-suited John Leguizamo! What do you mean "insensitive"?
7. College Student Murders Massage Parlor Client
Barbara Hoffman was a Madison, Wisconsin college student with a eyes almost as bright as her f*ture, who was set to graduate in the 1970's. So it was actually quite shocking when she was discovered to have been moonlighting at a "massage parlor". How was she discovered? Well, just to show that living a double life was not her strong suit, she murdered one of her clients, who was then found beaten in the head outside her apartment.
Her boyfriend reported her to the police and was made a key witness during the investigation, which wasn't exactly rocket science since one of the other factors incriminating her was the fact that the dead client had made her the beneficiary of his life insurance policy and co-owner of his home in the time of his death (the best possible move when dealing with law-breaking poor people.)
Her boyfriend, whom she actually met at that same "massage parlor", was found dead in a bathtub, poisoned from cyanide.
The coroner then examined the organs of the first death and found cyanide levels 37 times the lethal dose, because better safe than sorry. The head injuries were estimated to be the results of intense convulsions.
Hoffman went to trial and was found guilty of murder because she was a horrible, horrible criminal who had no idea how to hide her actions. She has been incarcerated ever since and will not comment on her crimes, most likely because, along with ruining her entire life, they're pretty freakin' embarrassing.
Click here for full news story.
8. So Legendary A Band Was Named After Her
This prostitute was so legendary that the Southern Rock band Molly Hatchet named themselves after her and her legend.
According to legend, in the 17th century, Molly Hatchet would sell her body exclusively to wealthy men. Following coitus (because you should be reading this in the voice of someone who smokes a pipe and hangs out in velvet robes around fireplaces), she would mutilate and decapitate all her clients with a hatchet. If science had been ANY better back then, she would have been called the Praying Mantis. Or Molly the Mantis. Big missed opportunity there.
But, because it made the most sense at the time, they named her Molly Hatchet.
Her actions became elements of common folklore, enough for the rock band Molly Hatchet to take notice and christen themselves with her name, and enough for differing legends of her to exist all over the U.S.